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Apr. 23rd, 2007

kurt--enough

yeah.. its happening again

everyone!!!

i am changing my screen name (again)..
the new one is

[info]alighternote

add that shit. right now.

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Feb. 28th, 2007

kurt--enough

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mood: blank blank
music: death cab for cutie
gregg and i had the beginnings of a serious talk last night. but it was 1 in the morning so i became tired and said that i'd call him today. i called him 3 times throughout the day, and he finally picked up half an hour ago and said he'd call me back in 45 minutes when he got home. this is awesome. we're probably going to break up. i feel like shit. i feel apathetic. i feel like cutting, which is something i haven't done in 6 months. i know i'd be able to get away with it, too, becuase i wear a watch with a really thick band on my left wrist. and right now, i dont really care.

i haven't been eating well, either. i'm counting calories in my head. its bad.

i went to a BAGLY (boston alliance for gay and lesbian youth) meeting today. it was really fun, and i met quite a few really nice people. i really want to go back like every week. i'm a little nervous though becuase this trannie wrote me a note asking me out.. but (1) i have a boyfriend (even though i dont know how long its going to last..) and (2) i don't want to jump right into dating people in the BAGLY scene. i just want to make friends for now.. relationships fuck things up too much for me. but what do i say to him? i'm really nervous. i dont know how to say no to people beucase i'm too nice, and then i end up ignoring them and hurting them becuase i fear confrontation so much.

also. i realized something today. a girl on my floor said "maggie, you have so many ex boyfriends!" tonight and i was like "..have i really dated that many people?" i mean there's jeremy (long on and off ex, first love, on and off for 3 years now), matt (month long thing that was during the summer before my senior year), dillon (summer after senior year), jeff (2 weeks at the beginnig of the school year), and now i'm dating gregg. 4 exes? is that really that much? i just hate the fact that i've never been in a relationship for longer than 4 and a half months. that was jeremy. and all the others haven't been longer than a month, and now gregg and i have been together for 2 months.

i've got so much work to do. i hate it.
a paper due monday.
a mold for a 3d design plaster project due monday.
a project/presentation due tuesday.

kill me.

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Oct. 16th, 2006

kurt--enough

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{art by kurt halsey}

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